My name is Jay.
I am from the beautiful island of Guam.
I love reggae music.
I play in a band called The Rastars.
Adios, bitchachos!
Catching Elephant is a theme by Andy Taylor
James Frey, A Million Little Pieces
MY FUCKING EYES HURT FROM THE DRIED OUT TEARS AND THE LIGHTS FROM THIS STUPID FUCKING LAPTOP.
I can’t cry anymore because my eyeballs have dried up.
I feel my heart crying now.
I would like to say that I’m sorry but I can’t.
I can’t say sorry because I didn’t do anything wrong to you.
I created a stupid fucking profile on a stupid site one night so long ago when you left me in a dark dark place and never logged on again and was on it for less than 10 minutes.
almost a year later, 2 months away from the arrival of our baby, you revisit the past…and screw me with the biggest dildo in the world and shove it up my ass.
i never ffucked around on you. Never meaning not even once. Why are you doing this to me over an online profile from so long ago when we weren’t together.
i have never chatted with a soul on that thing. I have never chatted with soul on any fucking chat site. Even if I did, how the hell can you throw me away over that.
i never cheated. never was shady to you. I am so fucking confused right now and just want to be with you already. I accepted and forgave you for so many things that you have done in the past and you can’t forgive me for some stupid online thing? its not like I created it when i was with you. it’s not like i ever logged onto it while i was with you.
you’re making a huge mistake and our separation is only hurting Sofia.
come home!!!! Is this situation impossible to get over? Aren’t we stronger than this?
Alone…
Being alone gives you time to think. Being around others distracts you from thinking about what you need to be thinking about. Being distracted from thinking about what you think about fucks up what needs done to make it right.
I am alone and have been thinking. I still stand strong on what I feel and there are no distractions to allow me to forget what my heard feels and desires.
I wish this was the same for my other half. If it did, I wouldn’t be alone. Wouldn’t have to think about what my heart feels.
this is what I want to see in front of me in the next year but with a boy inside my lahv’s tummy.
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i finally figured this shit out. what a big misunderstanding. what a big mix up. i am innocent!!!
i almost thought that I was going crazy lahv. You almost got me to believe that I had split personality and did shit that I was unaware of. check your email and you will see…
the love of my life…
The love of my life and the mother of my unborn child is gone. She believes that I am something I am not. I thought that the better thing to do was to let her breathe and cool off last night while she hung out with her friend at home instead of rushing to her (which I wanted to do) in attempts to reassure her that she means the world to me and that I would never ever do anything to lose her. But I was wrong and the “thing” that I should have fixed a long time ago ended up being the death of me. I’m an idiot for ignoring it thinking that this stupid irrelevant “thing” would just disappear.
This is another desperate attempt to reach her as my unanswered texts and calls have done nothing.
I will go back to my empty apartment now and wait as i always do regardless of what anyone says I should do. She’s my lahv and i will not ignore that. Most likely she won’t walk through that door but I’d kill myself if she did and I wasn’t there waiting behind it.
